On Fear

There are very few monsters who warrant the fear we have of them.
(Andre Gide)
In life, it becomes too easy to fall into the trap of not doing anything because it is safe. We know what we want, we know what we need to do to get what we want, but we end up not doing anything, if the process requires us to leave our comfort zone. Fear of the unknown outweighs the rewards of achieving our goals. We tend to overthink every little detail, magnify in our minds every possible way that things can go wrong, and end up concluding that the possibility of success cannot outweigh the all too real likelihood of failure. It becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy-- our overwhelming fear of failure makes failure inevitable. We freeze and fail simply because we refuse to even just try.
In times like this, impulsiveness becomes a virtue. Let your instincts rule, stop thinking, and just do what you have to do, consequences be damned. In hindsight, when the dust settles, you realize that acting with courage in the face of what you fear, whether you do get what you want or not, is the ultimate reward.
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Hey, I'm healthy after all

Thank God for blessings, big and small. The day started out like it was going to be a disaster. First off my office desktop crashed, I couldn't access my work files at all. Most likely culprit was a virus from one of the websites my sister frequents to watch her telenovelas. Some of my immediate work, I can do on my laptop, as I had some of my files on my flash drive. But MOST if not all of my work are in that desktop, and it is imperative that I am able to retrieve my files from my hard drive. The verdict will be out tomorrow if I can salvage anything. Otherwise, ... No, there cannot be an "otherwise", simply incomprehensible. Please God, save my files. I know that you do not give me challenges that I can't handle, but I would really be grateful if you can save my harddrive.
The rest of the morning was manic. "So many things to do, so little time" is apt.
The good news that turned the day around was my doctor's saying that, based on my test results, I'm a pretty healthy person.
I couldn't be petty & gripe about small stuff after that. Again, thank you God for answered prayers :)
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Tightrope Walker

Dear God, please help me focus so that I can finish the work that you have entrusted to me. I'm worried about my blood test results. I pray that everything is alright. They say that the secret to a good life is to be able to strike a balance. With everything that's going on right now, I feel like I'm walking a tightrope. The effort not to get stressed is getting me stressed :P I just need to take a deep breath, get a second wind, and FOCUS.

I appreciate this message from You. Helps me put things in their proper perspective. I should stop my whining and say thank you instead. I am truly blessed. 

"You are chosen by God. He loves you and has made you holy. So then, care for one another. Be kind. Do not be proud. Be humble. Be patient." (Colossians 3 : 12 - WE)

Heart be well

I am only 32, and will be turning 33 this coming May, and I am frightfully unhealthy for my age. I've been having pains that's indicative of a heart condition. Hopefully, it's just something as ordinary as a pinched nerve or something like that. On our way to get results from the blood tests, and will be having a stress test this week. Please God, may the results be normal. And I firmly resolve to eat better, exercise and take better care of myself. For myself, for Alan and for Eli, and all the people who depend on me.
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